Tuesday, December 16, 2008

The end is the beginning is the end . . . .

One minute, everything is going along swimmingly, and the next it's over. That pretty much sums up the year for me.

I walk into the room, thinking everything is normal, and then the floor disappears and once again, I am in free-fall mode.

I should know better than to invest in anything by now, but for some pathological reason, I keep on doing it. I need to stop setting myself up for disappointment. I need to stop expecting that things will work out. Clearly, they don't and the only thing I'm ever left with is a gigantic pile of defeat and heartbreak.


5 comments:

Blakely said...

I know it has been a tough year Dara. I do believe things will get better even though it may not seem like it right. You cannot give up trying...that just would not be you!

Sara said...

"Everything is always ok in the end, if it is not ok, it is not the end"

Hang in there....

restaurantrefugee said...

Sometimes you don't know what the rope looks like until you've already used it to take the first upward step. There is no weakness in optimism.

dara said...

B: Don't worry, I'm just feeling surprised and defeated. Things were going great and then out of the blue . . . .

Sara: Thanks.

Ref: No, but what is the saying about insanity? That it's doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different results?

Paige Jennifer said...

Sounds like you're still on a roller coaster. I hate roller coaster. I hate them more than lima beans.

Hang in there kiddo. Just think about how, in a year from now, it'll be different.