Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Going Dark

This whole blog thing started with me wanting to leave comments on other people's blogs, post some silly links, and tell a story about a mouse. Almost three years later, it's evolved into something else entirely -- a diary of sorts. And I'm often thinking that keeping that diary and making it public is something that might not be the best thing for me, personally and professionally.

Besides, isn't blogging just narcissism meeting the 21st century?

But I need a creative outlet. I need to write, to express myself through the written word. It is who I am, who I always have been. To me, it seems that I am not nearly as eloquent in person -- my witticisms are less witty, my earnesty less earnest, my hopefulness less hopeful, my sadness less sad. I feel the most when I am writing. I find myself crying rivers when I am writing, but am dry-eyed and logical when I am not.

I like the me that feels much better than the me that thinks.

Still, I need to figure some stuff out, and am too vulnerable here right now. Maybe eventually I'll write here again, maybe I won't. Maybe I'll work on that book I keep talking about instead or I'll start keeping a paper journal. Who knows? But, at least for the time being, this space will be dark.


matt said...

Please keep writing, even if it's not here. That way those of us who only know you through the blog will know that your voice is still out there, even if, for the time being, we won't be able to hear it.

I look forward to the book.

Have a happy Hanukkah and a healthy, happier New Year.

DSL said...

I agree with Matt. Keep writing for yourself, and if you have anything funny to tell (hopefully not another mouse), please feel free to share. :-) Thanks for the blog. You know it's the only one I read religiously. Now I guess I'll have to work. Hang in there Dara and do what you have to do.

restaurantrefugee said...

For whatever it's worth, I will miss your voice. It has been a pleasure to read even when it was uncomfortable pleasure. I wish you loads of happiness in the new year.

Sara said...

I too will miss your voice, your perspective and your honesty. The world needs more people willing to share the good, the bad and the ugly and I thank you for all that you have chosen to share with us.

Ryane said...

Dara! I will miss reading your blog. Good luck and keep the faith!!

mad said...

I know the feeling. Be sure to holler when you come back!

Paige Jennifer said...

Change is a good thing. And you can always come back.

Best of luck with your new adventures!