Thursday, February 07, 2008

Speechless

There are some words I never in a million years thought I'd have to hear or to say -- or even write. Some things just don't happen. But at 3:40, when I heard my cell phone ringing in the other room, I knew I was about to hear something that would change my life forever. I mean, who's dad calls at 3:40 am on a Thursday unless the most horrible, unthinkable thing has happened?

I can't type the words. It makes it real.

I then had to call my brother and tell him. He answered the phone and I said, "Please don't make me say it out loud."

I then called my sister, who had to tell my Nana. They're on their way to the hospital by now. I sat down on the floor and hyperventilated, until the phone rang again.

I have to figure out how to get myself to Florida -- not to mention how to function on a very, very basic level.


13 comments:

Paige Jennifer said...

(shit)

Hang in there. Breathe. Eat chocolate. And just try to get through each part of the day one moment at a time.

Justin S. said...

Hang in there.

Evil Spock said...

Every time I get a call at an unusual time from my sister or my parents, I go into panic mode. Luckily, i still have my folks.

I'm sorry Dara.

jinx protocol said...

Just hang on tight. It gets better. It may take a very long time, so protracted that you won't see it coming, but somehow, it always seems to get better.

mad said...

I'm so so sorry. You're the strong one.

The Goo said...

Wow. I'm so sorry. Just keep breathing; that's all you have to do for now.

tingb said...

Oh, no. I'm so sorry.

Miss Scarlet said...

I'm thinking good thoughts for you.

Ryane said...

Yeah, Dara...I'm so sorry.

Andi L. said...

Please know that we are all thinking of you. If you need anything, want to talk, or just want to hear a friendly voice, please give us a call. We are so sorry for your loss.

matt said...

My condolences to you and your family.

cube said...

I'm sorry.

legallyheidi.com said...

:(

i'm so sorry :( my condolences go out to you and your family