Speechless

There are some words I never in a million years thought I'd have to hear or to say -- or even write. Some things just don't happen. But at 3:40, when I heard my cell phone ringing in the other room, I knew I was about to hear something that would change my life forever. I mean, who's dad calls at 3:40 am on a Thursday unless the most horrible, unthinkable thing has happened?

I can't type the words. It makes it real.

I then had to call my brother and tell him. He answered the phone and I said, "Please don't make me say it out loud."

I then called my sister, who had to tell my Nana. They're on their way to the hospital by now. I sat down on the floor and hyperventilated, until the phone rang again.

I have to figure out how to get myself to Florida -- not to mention how to function on a very, very basic level.